unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (i say so much but nothing at all)
So you see videos of those really awesome orchestras playing concerts and stuff, right, and all the people are in formal wear... What happens when they're just recording something for an album? Do they still dress up?

I think most of them don't. They're busy people like the rest of us, with kids to drop off at school and appointments to keep and then tonight the twins have soccer practice and the bake sale for the swim team is tomorrow, so they gotta make four dozen sugar cookies when they get home and the dog got into the roast that was defrosting, so what the hell are they going to do for dinner tonight? They're running around, trying to find a store that has pork chops on sale because being a world renown oboeist doesn't pay like it used to, man, so they do not have time to get all snazzed up just to sit in a little room and play for the sweaty sound recording guy behind the glass. No way, they just go in in their cats-wearing-snorkels pajamas. And they maybe only sometimes brush their teeth.

There's always that one guy who's gotta ruin it though, because he shows up in his twelve piece tux with his monocle firmly affixed and his top hat exactly centred on his head because it's too avante-garde to wear it slightly tilted to the left. And he's all 'dudes, you are not taking this seriously enough! It's bad enough the conductor started letting you wear business casual to rehearsals, but now we look trashy. Seriously, you guys suck.'

I bet they hate that guy.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (profound thoughts)
I was in a play when I was younger (I was in plenty of plays, actually, I went to theatre school for 7 years, not to mention community theatre and backyard plays for the fam, plus SOS in university). The point is, I was in this particular play when I was younger.

I continue in this vein for a bit, then veer quickly into talking about my chest in terms that might freak people out. Nothing horribly graphic, but cutting here for possible tmi just in case. Also, length, as usual. )
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (little singing bird)
Here are some things I just don't understand.

1) Heavy metal. I mean, I kind of get heavy metals (although it's never really been well defined as to how you get into that club), but the music of the same name confuses me. It's probably really hard to play and more power to you, metal guitarists, but wow it just kind of hurts my ears and makes me angry. I can't understand what you're saying if you keep shouting and growling like that! It's like talking to an angry dog.

2) And why don't people like sitcoms? You don't have to like all of them, but I find it hard to believe there is not a single situation comedy you don't at least sometimes enjoy. WHY DO YOU HATE LAUGHTER.

3) And sausages are gross. What part of the animal are you even eating? I don't think you know. And that weird me out. Same with pepperoni (though it makes a good name for a gecko) and extra same goes for meatloaf.

4) What's the deal with Lost? What was the story for that even? It seems like six years of unanswered questions and random shit that the writers thought would be a good idea. Or maybe this is how it happened:

'Guys, the dog ate the scripts for this week! I think he got angry because he was listening to too much incoherent metal music and he couldn't figure out what he was eating, so he was trying to get back at me! What do we do?'

'Shit, I knew we should have let him watch Scrubs! Add a polar bears and some smudgy smoke shit that kills people. That'll do for at least another half a season!'


5) I like drinking booze. Alcohol makes me feel warm 'n' fuzzy and it makes it easier for me to deal with people. I am not a notoriously good dealer of people usually. But I don't get the appeal of being so drunk you throw up. Most people don't like throwing up. In fact, most people try to avoid it. Unless they're drinking. All I'm saying is if you hate your friends so much that you need to drink until you can't remember anything you did with them at all last night, maybe you need to Craigslist some new friends. Just sayin'.

6) What's the deal with spelling on the internet? Why do some people find it so difficult to do? I mean, you can navigate to facebook or twitter or whatever site you blow at spelling on. You typed in the url without killing anyone. How is 'where' or 'their' so hard to spell? ESPECIALLY considering most browsers have the option for auto-spellcheck?

These are just some of the things I don't get today, guys.

unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (gen -> garcia's lemonade)
After a particularly arduous journey yesterday, I have safely arrived at my mother's house. There was some crazy snowstorm business going on for the middle half of the bus trip. The bus had to pull over about eight times for the worst of it to pass, which was scary because with 60 in my bank account and no cell service, I did not want to be stranded in Bracebridge.

Other than the terror though, I realized how absolutely gorgeous snow actually is when you're not outside in it. The lights from the bus headlights made it all sparkly on the trees. And I mean, there's a lot of trees during a five hour trip that is a large majority through the woods. All the pine trees looked weighed down and snowtastic and all the leafless, branchy trees looked skeletal and ghostly and it was pretty and haunting and gave me an idea for a story which I'm not supposed to talk about but kind of just did anyways.

Now I'm at my mama's place (until the 29th, whew!) and instead of fighting McLovin' for my food or the nice spot on the bed or my socks, I have to wrestle Mama's cat AND her three dogs. It's like, 'sure Lillith's dead, but now Satan's here and he wants to steal my body.'

Yeah that sentence should prolly read 'out of the frying pan and into the fire.' That's what I meant. For sure.

Stanley, who is already very big for a Boston, apparently grew a whole bunch since I have been here last (Thanksgiving!). I am considering leaving my clothes here and putting him in my suitcase instead. He could hold his own against the spaniel 'o' doom, I do believe.

Mama has a list of holiday related chores for me to do. A very, very long list. On one hand, it will keep me form OD-ing on the internet. On the other hand, ew, chores.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (aerostat)
Apparently I should just keep my mouth shut entirely...
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (tutu and fakir hug)
[Welcome to journal entry # 9oo.]

I was out last night with Marianne, Ryan and Peter and we got to talking about how people seem to create drama for fun, profit and probably spite.

Mari and Peter are having huge issues with one of their roommates and her hellion cat, so we discussed that. Then we talked about their other roommate and how he's bizarre (he works with us, so I actually know him). Apparently he's just misunderstood. *shifty eyes*

Then Peter made an unfortunate comment about a guy who Mari and I both... Know. It was a very head+desk scenario. That guy is the reason I look around when I'm alone sometimes and just say, out loud, 'fuck am I ever dumb,' or 'clearly I have made some bad decisions'.

I won't say my decisions in that forum have been stellar since then (oy), but wheeeeeeew! *unintelligible noises of self loathing go here*

Ever look back on your life and have that single moment of 'why did I do/say/think that!?' No matter how far I go in life, where I end up, what I experience, I'll look back on that decision as one of the worst I could have made.

Depressing for a bright and slightly foggy Saturday morning, but that's the way my partially brain dead cookie crumbles.

PS, note to self: Say 'oy' more. Also, note to self again: Another first for me proves that I am clearly superior. And yeah, I'm a bad person for thinking it, and yeah, the better person for the job always scores it in the end (as it should be; less responsibility for me), but hell if it doesn't make me feel great for at least not finishing dead last every time.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (shock face)
The weather hasn't been the most pleasant recently. The windows of the bus were mud spattered and clouded up. I was coming up the hill right as the last bit of sun was fading and dark was settling. Looking through the messy windows out into the darkening streets, only the lights were clear. I had a few moments where I thought I saw people or trees or cars, but it was all too fuzzy to make out.

It made me wonder, in a moment of panic, if I couldn't see them, and they couldn't see me, do any of us really exist for certain? Like when I pull the quilt over my head, am I still in my bed, or do I go someplace else?

It was all very unsettling.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (thinking thinky thoughts)
I got the computer up and running today. It's a comforting old friend on this day of being with family and loved ones. I stuck on an old playlist I dimly recall creating and the memories come flooding back. I'm only two decades old, you wouldn't think I could have so much nostalgia. It's like the old time sepia video footage, with all the crackles and pops left in. The memories rise unbidden; sharp, vivid and vengeful. Enough to make me cringe, usually. It hurts, but I'll be okay because I don't have any other choice. What is done can never be undone, and wishing isn't going to change it.

There are so many people I'd love to see right this very instant, but I think I'll settle for just being able to see them again.

But then there are those who I can't see again, not really. Not unless I close my eyes and cling to the memory. A wisp of music or a familiar smell.

The other side of the coin. Memory. Painful and mean and enough to make you cry, but really the only thing we've got sometimes. Good and bad. Balance. *whew* C'est la vie.

Deep thought is exhausting. It's time for my favourite Christmas tradition: the long winter nap.
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I have now lost count of my updates. But I've done at least one a day and have had a few days where I made multiple posts. The numbering system was flawed anyways (you know, with all them, numbers...)

I am still camping out at death's door, but he hasn't let me in yet, so that may be a good sign.

Hit the Nyquil a little too hard. Any of you who might know me knows that this could be detrimental to everyone's mental health. I wrote a delightful little snippet about a polar bear though. ^__^

Back to work, as per normal tomorrow, and hopefully I'll find out whether or not my vacation was approved (because it's supposed to start Thursday... I'd really like to find out what's going on there).

I'm triple checking this all and I still feel as if I am missing multiple spelling mistakes.

And I realize not a word of this flows together with any semblance of order. Again, blame the Nyquil.

I thought briefly about numbers and probability today. I don't like thinking about numbers too often, they are dreadfully fluid things. But what I managed to piece together is that one is bad luck. Two is slightly more to be concerned about, but still quite possibly an ironic coincidence. Three times... Well, three times is a sign.

Time will tell on that one.

31 Days 'o' Blog Extra Special Super Features

Today! (In History): 1707, Japan. Last recorded eruption of Mount Fuji

Quote of the Day: "A fabrication is a lie you tell others; a rationalization is a lie you tell yourself." [Source unknown, but damn if it's not one of my favourites.]

Bizarre Fact of the Day: 1/4 of the world's mine-able coal is located in the United States. That's approximately 275 billion tonnes. How bizarre.

Pretty Picture of the Day )

The Final Word: Everyone is a hero in their own way.

015/031

Dec. 14th, 2008 05:53 pm
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015/031
December 14th, 2oo8

Another day gone. I am trudging ever closer to death. I am suffering (if you can even call it that) from some sort of mental crisis today. A teleological crisis, I believe. I'm fairly certain it will pass and I will continue with this stagnant little affair I call my 'life.'

31 Days 'o' Blog Features

Today! In History: 1782. The first Montgolfier airship flight.

Quote of the Day: "In these matters, the only certainty is that nothing is certain." [Pliny the Elder]

Bizarre Fact of the Day: Somewhere between 10 and 100 percent of all domesticated pet rats carry the 'rat fever' virus (that's a pretty large range... I'm not sure I like the russian roulette feel to it all). But don't worry, only 15% of all humans affected die automatically. How bizarre.

Pretty Picture of the Day )

The Final Word: If I don't snap out of this soon, I will snap someone's neck. I do not enjoy this overabundance of thought.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
007/031
December 6th, 2oo8

So girl's day was more than amazing. Wedding dress trying-on with Aimee. I won't say too much about it because it's top secret wedding stuff and I don't wanna spoil anything, but I will say I am surprised at how excited we all got. Weddings rock, I guess. Maybe deep down, everyone likes to get dressed fancy and get taken somewhere nice. (Hint hint world.)

After we got home, Sarah dyed my hair (slight mishap, nothing much, most likely my fault). So now it's cuter than normal.

Then off to Jenn/Jason/etc's for candy apples and gingerbread house decorating contest. You really can't comprehend how much sugar is in my system right now. Shall let you all know when the results from the contest come in.

Tomorrow is a day of smiles and my new and improved positive can-do, will-do attitude. If you need favours (sexual or, you know, the other kind), a friendly non-judgmental person to listen to you vent or have tough questions that you need answered, hit me up. I am turning a new leaf.

I've also decided to turn over the social butterfly leaf, so let's see how I work on that one too.

That's all tonight, world, sleep well.

31 Days 'o' Blog Extra Special Super Features

Today! (In History): 1768. Encyclopedia Britannica, first edition published.

Quote of the Day: "This is a battle, a war, and the casualties could be your hearts and souls." [Robin Williams, Dead Poets Society]

Bizarre Fact of the Day: Crayola crayons come in 120 different colours, but the labels are only printed in 18 colours. How bizarre.

Pretty Picture of the Day )

The Final Word: I'll reread this post in a few days and think I'm a crazy person. Fact.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
03/31
December 3rd, 2oo8

Once again, snow. How am I not surprised?

I am struggling with 5 days a week thing. I mean, it's Wednesday and I'm at work. Who the hell does anything on Wednesdays? I haven't worked on a Wednesday since October 2oo7. Urgh. I feel like I've fallen into the Twilight Zone.

Which is perhaps what inspired this thought:
(Well, and a ridiculous conversation with the people last night)

Naked.

It's a very strange thing. Not you know, actually weird, because everyone is naked all the time (under their clothes). But say you know someone, a friend, a roommate, a whatever. And then you see them naked. Everything is different. I've seen friend's nipple piercings, and I am changed. Not in a huge, life reaffirming way, but still, when I look at them, everything is just a little different.

This is my hypothesis, anyways. I may need a scientist to help me prove it.

And these are the things I think about.

(In other news, going to try to score some a.t.o. next week for job hunting. A little somethin' somethin' part time, maybe.)

31 Days 'o' Blog Extra Special Super Features

Today! (In History): 1639, outer space. The first recorded Transit of Venus (which is also a fantastically depressing play).

Quote of the Day: "Sometimes I think we're alone. Sometimes I think we're not. In either case, the thought is staggering." [I have seen this quote attributed to 3 or 4 people, soI'm not fully sure.]

Bizarre Fact of the Day: The average person loses about 2.1 million skin cells an hour. How bizarre (and gross).

Pretty Picture of the Day )

The Final Word: I miss going to the theatre.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
Clearly, I have made some bad decisions.
But the new job I have so far isn't one of them. I'm thus far very enthused to be working there. Weird, I know. Customer care... It doesn't sound like something I would be good at/enjoy. I guess I really like how work can be work and I can leave it at work. There's no way to take it home, so I don't even have to worry.

I can worry, however about the time I spend daydreaming. It's getting to a dangerously high percentage of my daily thought. I have to remember that I live in this crazy reality and not inside me own head....

Hmmm...
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
It's like yet another big chapter of my life is over. I'm pretty sure it's for the best. I'm really starting to feel like a grown-up.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
You know when you're like... leaving a comment or something on a forum board of deviantart or the like? And instead of hitting 'reply' the button is marked 'submit'?

I get the weirdest little thrill out of that. Mmm... submission.


...

Just a thought.

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