Mustn't Dwell
Feb. 11th, 2009 12:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
unavoidedcrisis
[Welcome to journal entry # 9oo.]
I was out last night with Marianne, Ryan and Peter and we got to talking about how people seem to create drama for fun, profit and probably spite.
Mari and Peter are having huge issues with one of their roommates and her hellion cat, so we discussed that. Then we talked about their other roommate and how he's bizarre (he works with us, so I actually know him). Apparently he's just misunderstood. *shifty eyes*
Then Peter made an unfortunate comment about a guy who Mari and I both... Know. It was a very head+desk scenario. That guy is the reason I look around when I'm alone sometimes and just say, out loud, 'fuck am I ever dumb,' or 'clearly I have made some bad decisions'.
I won't say my decisions in that forum have been stellar since then (oy), but wheeeeeeew! *unintelligible noises of self loathing go here*
Ever look back on your life and have that single moment of 'why did I do/say/think that!?' No matter how far I go in life, where I end up, what I experience, I'll look back on that decision as one of the worst I could have made.
Depressing for a bright and slightly foggy Saturday morning, but that's the way my partially brain dead cookie crumbles.
PS, note to self: Say 'oy' more. Also, note to self again: Another first for me proves that I am clearly superior. And yeah, I'm a bad person for thinking it, and yeah, the better person for the job always scores it in the end (as it should be; less responsibility for me), but hell if it doesn't make me feel great for at least not finishing dead last every time.
I was out last night with Marianne, Ryan and Peter and we got to talking about how people seem to create drama for fun, profit and probably spite.
Mari and Peter are having huge issues with one of their roommates and her hellion cat, so we discussed that. Then we talked about their other roommate and how he's bizarre (he works with us, so I actually know him). Apparently he's just misunderstood. *shifty eyes*
Then Peter made an unfortunate comment about a guy who Mari and I both... Know. It was a very head+desk scenario. That guy is the reason I look around when I'm alone sometimes and just say, out loud, 'fuck am I ever dumb,' or 'clearly I have made some bad decisions'.
I won't say my decisions in that forum have been stellar since then (oy), but wheeeeeeew! *unintelligible noises of self loathing go here*
Ever look back on your life and have that single moment of 'why did I do/say/think that!?' No matter how far I go in life, where I end up, what I experience, I'll look back on that decision as one of the worst I could have made.
Depressing for a bright and slightly foggy Saturday morning, but that's the way my partially brain dead cookie crumbles.
PS, note to self: Say 'oy' more. Also, note to self again: Another first for me proves that I am clearly superior. And yeah, I'm a bad person for thinking it, and yeah, the better person for the job always scores it in the end (as it should be; less responsibility for me), but hell if it doesn't make me feel great for at least not finishing dead last every time.