unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
2007-11-07 10:24 am
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idiots need to be gone now

 Okay, so let's recap.

I'm currently full of depression and without my meds.

I'm also now the half-owner of 14 rats because the stupid thing went and had 10 babies.

I'm also apparently babysitting a two year old for two days (totally not my thing).

All slightly tolerable (except for the meds).

Until people show up in my fucking living room telling me that it's about time I finally came for and did something to contribute to society and give her the phone now.

Yeah, how about you go die, okay?
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
2007-09-17 03:44 pm
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Rather sad post

Been feeling really gross the past two or three days. Might be coming down with some sort of throat thing. Hope it's not strep.

I just read A Midsummer Night's Dream for class tonight and the first two parts of The Illiad. My eyes hurt from squinting at a screen for two hours. I want it to be time to go to class, just so it's that much closer to sleeping time.

I seriously have lost so much. I feel so empty. I work, I sleep, I occassionally trol the forums on Gaia and I occassionally read fanfic. I've stopped writing, I've stopped all my art, all of my correspondence. I hardly even speak to my roommates. I don't go out.

I work, I sleep and I sometimes playing D&D. It hardly feels like a life at all.

I'm tired all the time and I don't feel like trying to change. It would just take too much energy I don't have.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
2007-04-24 11:07 pm
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Another Music Meme-- I'm Addicted

The Rules Are As Follows
1. You shall put your music player on shuffle.
2. You shall press forward for each question.
3. You shall use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. You shall give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.


How are you feeling today?
Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da -- The Beatles
So I'm feeling... like a singer in a band. Maybe I'm feeling like I have a future in store for me?

Will you get far in life?
Bring Me To Life -- Evanescence
'Save me the nothing I've become.' Ouch.

How do your friends see you?
Lighthouse -- The Hush Sound
In the song, the lighthouse is full of ghosts and stories and it seems to be the only place to hide from the storm (even though it'll kill you if you go inside). Hmmm.

What is your best friend's theme song?
No One Mourns The Wicked -- Wicked Original Broadway Cast
HAH. So true.

What is the story of your life?
Don't Lie -- Black Eyed Peas
Ehh, I'm an actress and a writer. Lying is my life.

What is high school like?
Buddy Holly -- Weezer
'What did we ever do to these guys that made them so violent?'

How can you get ahead in life?
Once and For All -- Newsies Soundtrack
Okay, so I can get ahead in life by sticking to it, non-violently maintaining my point of view in the face of adversity and creating some sort of musical montage during the most vital plot point. Ahah!

What is the best thing about your friends?
Another Day -- RENT Original Broadway Cast
My friends are great because they sing kickass duets.

What is in store for this weekend?
We Intertwined -- The Hush Sound
'Life was on our tongues, it tasted heavenly- so good.' I'm going to experience life to the fullest this weekend. OR ELSE.

How is your life going?
Ice Storm, Big Gust and You -- Tilly and the Wall
Sparks leap from my mouth when I talk, apparently. Sweeeeeet.

What song will they play at your funeral?
Heffalumps and Woozles -- Winnie The Pooh
Apparently I will have stipulated this sometijme during my last, morphine riddled days.

What do your friends really think of you?
Something To Sleep To -- Michelle Branch
Either they think I'm a manipulative bitch or they feel I am the most reliable friend they have. Possibly both.

Do people secretly lust after you?
Lady Marmalade -- Christina Aguilera et al.
That's a resounding affirmative. ^__^

How can you make yourself happy?
Padriac, My Prince -- Bright Eyes
I really hope this doesn't mean I have to drown a baby.

What should you do with your life?
Make Out Kids -- Motion City Soundtrack
I should start swimming, then if it hits, I'll never die. (Yeah, I don't know either)

Will you ever have children?
Spring -- bare: A Pop Opera New York Cast
'If I ran the show, I'd say baby- baby- let it snow!' It does say baby twice... But then again, spring is all "oooh, fertility," and this song is all "booo, spring is bad," so I'm not really sure what to think.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
2007-03-01 05:20 pm
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Peter? Is that you?

I'd like to start with just a- if we could take a moment- if maybe we were silent, 'fore we had spoken... I'd tried to find the words to- just the right quotation- but I must confess I came up empty...

I have moments like this. It's quite common, especially when I am afflicted with sleep maddness. I'm not worried.

I used to compare my life to bare. My life was bare for a while. Oh the absolute drama. (I was Peter when it all started.)

Then I felt like Nadia. For the longest time. I still feel like that for extended periods of time. It's not so bad; I like Nadia.

No, what worries me is my bizarre and technically increasing tendency to remind myself of Jason. But you know, if I'm Jason, who the hell is Peter? I found my Ivy, I know my Matt. Hell I've even found my Nadia. But where the hell is Peter?

[Really, this entry was designed for only one person to really understand. My dear Mango, how I love thee...]

For the record, I don't want my life to be bare. Rent, I could deal with. I can't think of who I'd be, off the top of my head, given the current circumstances, but I'm sure it would be near-preferable to being Jason. He dies at the end, you know, and it is terribly amusing.

SLEEPMADDNESS I TELLS YOU!

Sarah made macaroni and cheese last night... Not gonna lie, pretty much the best thing I have ever eaten. Guh. I want to sleep with her macaroni and cheese.

Rehearsal tonight, then home and sleep. And margaritas and lesbian kissing. Possibly not all in that order. I'll try to get pictures.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
2006-08-25 12:09 am
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Teeeeeeeeea

I suck at life.

Lia's tea party was beyond fun with the delicious tea and the yummy food and the wonderful company. My only complaint was that all the frickin' caffiene ruined my sleep schedule.

But it tasted so good! I think the Lady Grey was the best. But it was all good so I'm not even sure. All I know is that I like tea. Fucking like tea.

Mother bought me jeans today. Jeans I am not allowed to wear until I move out. Uh-huh...
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
2006-06-17 01:17 am
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Life?

Do you know how many of my friends are online at one a.m.?

None of them.

Those bastards. I'm all 'blah I hate shit' and stuff. And nostalgic. I wanna tell all the stories.

Remember the time Lisa threw the apple?

Remember when we played the game of Risk that lasted eight days only to have Evan freak out 'cause he lost and flip the board into the lake?

Remember when I sucked at pool? Numerous times?

Remember when I threatened to kill you all? Numerous times?

And how about the first day[s] of school? And moving to a new town[s]? Births, deaths, weddings, funerals, yelling, crying, laughing, crying and forgetting what happened because we weren't exactly sober?

Why does it feel like my life is ending?
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
2006-06-15 10:58 pm
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School and Life

Urgh. High school is over. Tomorrow is my last day.

My life is both over and just beginning. It makes my head hurt.

I hope things work out for me, I really do.

OH! OH! Hee hee.
unavoidedcrisis: girl lying on the ground with playing cards scattered over her (Default)
2005-12-29 04:39 pm
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A Quick Note

ATTENTION WORLD:

I do not know what I want to do after high school, or what 'I want to be when I grow up.'

In fact, I was thinking about it today and I decided I do not want to grow up or finish high school. I don't want to go to university. I do not want to go to prom or grad or anything.

I don't even know what I am going to do tomorrow, so can you kindly lay off about the next thirty years?

Fuck off and leave me alone in my confusion.

Sincerely,
Me.